My old msn email no longer exists, how can I get the address and its emails back?

Hey, I used to have an email address that ended up @msn.com, but now whenever I try logging back into it I'm told that the account doesn't exist. Is there any way that I could get the email back? Hopefully with the emails that were still in there, because I've been trying to reach some information that is somewhere in those emails, but I can no longer log into that email.