Would someone be so kind as to help me access status/social updatesve posted

... AND -- EVEN MORE CRITICALLY-- COULD SOMEONE PLEASE EXPLAIN WHY MY OLD DELETED UPDATES ARE STILL SHOWING ON FRIENDS' "'LIVE" MESSENGER UPDATE FEEDS? THIS IS GROSS - UNLIKE ANYTHING EXPERIENCED ON MSN BEFORE -- E.V.E.R... I NEED TO REGAIN CONTROL OF MY POSTED ONLINE MATERIAL, AND I DESPERATELY NEED TO DO THIS N.O.W... THIS SHOULDN'T BE A PROBLEM! -- BUT IT SHOULD BE A PRIORITY, AS LEGITIMATE ACCESS TO MY PERSONAL MATERIAL IS BEING DENIED TO ME!!!! IF THERE A.R.E. IN FACT "EXPERTS" HERE AS STATED, PLEASE HELP ME RESOLVE THIS ASAP!! -- I CAME HERE FOR SOLUTIONS, NOT SYMPATHY OR REASSURANCE THAT OTHERS HAVE THIS PROBLEM -- I'VE NO DOUBT THEY DO, BUT THAT DOESN'T HELP ME FIX IT (NO OFFENSE)... THIS IS A TOTAL JOKE!! HOWEVER, SADLY I CAN'T AFFORD JOKES AS ONLINE PROVIDERS --NOR ONE MORE DAY SEEING LONG-DISCARDED **** IN MY NAME... I HAVE A LIFE --AND THIS DILEMMA IS HELPING TO SCREW THAT UP, BEING AN ORDINARY DAY-TO-DAY SERVICE USUALLY ACCESSIBLE WITHOUT INCIDENT, SUDDENLY BEING CHANGED WITHOUT WARNING AND (INEXPLICABLY) DENIED TO ME... AND UNDERSTANDABLY, BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE TIME TO RELEARN WHOLE EMAIL/ MSGR. PROGRAMS THKS VERY MUCH,, IT'S STRESSING ME TO THE MAX --WHICH NEITHER HOTMAIL NOR MESSENGER HAS EVER DONE IN 10+ YEARS BEING A CLIENT!! SO IT'S A DIRE PROBLEM. TO THE POINT WHERE I SEE NO OPTION BUT TO TAKE IT TO MY LAWYERS TOMORROW (THUS WASTING YET MORE TIME I DO NOT HAVE) TO SEE WHAT THEY CAN DO --SINCE I HAVE A MEDICAL ISSUE BEING EXACERBATED BY THIS UNDUE STRESS (AND NO I AM NOT FOOLING AROUND HERE -- WISH I COULD AFFORD SUCH A LUXURY; I CANNOT)... WHERE ARE ALL THE EXPERTS PROVIDING ANSWERS AS PROMISED?? I DIDN'T COME HERE FOR POINTLESS CHIT-CHAT, BUT FOR ACTUAL ANSWERS (IF THAT WEREN'T ENTIRELY OBVIOUS BY NOW)!!! RESULTS ONLY PLEASE???