Please help, Unable to access old hotmail account?

After failing to open my hotmail account (*** Email address is removed for privacy ***) thinking i was getting my password wrong, but then i noticed that it said my account no longer existed, having read alittle online i'm really worried that its gone forever, i haven't opened it for a while due to it being old and constantly bombarded with junk emails, with my new emails forwarded to my phone i rarely log in online anymore, but i really need to access it for paypal and my student loan & university information from when i started three years ago, please help, i'm absolutely gutted if its gone, aimee xx