I just hate OUTLOOK .. need my HOTMAIL back

Hi guys .. i'm about to be crazy i converted from hotmail to outlook .. i hate outlook .. before i changed it to outlook i tried to cancel the request then i tried to login in to my email again and i found this message ( This account is no longer usable) after  that i lost all my emails and contracts .. i tried to convert it again from out look to hotmail but it says .. ( only use Microsoft account ) - once i tried to reset my password i put my old hotmail as a contact email then it says ( this email doesn't exist )..

guys all i want is my hotmail back..

once i open the outlook page i can login by typing my hotmail account! but once i logged in i see at the top of the page the same email but outlook.sa?? i tried to send messages to the hotmail once but i couldn't receive them while it did work with the outlook .. 

please need help ..