all my emails missing. saved. unread. opened. everything is gone.

i did not use my hotmail email that much because i gave it out to much. like when i go shopping and they ask me for my email. i would give them my hotmail email instead of the one i use for family and friends. the hotmail account is also the one i use to log into everything. like facebook. twitter. instagram. pinterest. all of the sites i shop on use my hotmail account. so when i forget a password i go to my hotmail account to get them. for all of these sites. which means that i dont check it as nearly as much as i check my gmail account. i recently forgot my password for my twitter account and they sent me a email to reset it. so i try to go to my hotmail.com account and i find absolutely nothing. somehow im logged into my gmail account? i DO NOT want these accounts linked in anyway. i DO NOT wish to start a new email account to recieve all my "junk". i DO NOT wish to go into ALL of my accounts i have set up online to change every single one of them. How can i get into my hotmail account? i did try logging out and logging back into my hotmail account to check my emails. but it takes me to something where i dont have any emails its just all of my personal information. even in this question. it is going to send me a reply to my hotmail account. but apparantly i dont have a hotmail account? all i want is my hotmail account. but i dont want my hotmail and gmail account connected in anyway shape or form. THANKS!